| Current mood: |  dirty |
| Current music: | "Thrift Store Chair"- Everclear |
"I'm just a notch in your bed post... but you're just a line in a song."
So, this was definetly an interesting weekend. Some people said stuff to me that totally changed the way I look at things. Friday night I ended up having dinner & drinks with this guy I kinda always thought was cute since I got to RF. That WAS fun... we have a BUNCH in common... but then it turned sour. Go figure. The next morning when I could tell he was preparing to give me the "I don't actually like you" speech I asked "Are you going to make me cry?" and he said "No... but you might make yourself cry." That totally threw me for a loop, because it's so true. People can't MAKE you feel anything- you allow yourself to react to things the way that you do.
Then last night I went out w/ that Facebook guy, Jeff. It was actually pretty fun. We went Mini Golfing, and then to Buffalo Wild Wings. It was a nice little date... but I don't know if there was any chemistry on my end. He said something that kind of sent up a red flag. The night ended with no kiss. I think he was too shy to make a move.
Am I being too picky? I know that sounds ironic, given how I've acted lately... but I'm talking about RELATIONSHIPS. Are you supposed to hold out for the perfect person, or just try to find an imperfect person that's perfect for YOU?
Tonight is totally lame. I want to hang out with ANYONE but everyone is studying. I don't have any finals tomorrow!!! I almost wish I did. I'm kind of pissed at myself, too, because out of all the stuff I've done this week, there is ONE specific night that stands out the most and I've been thinking about it all week. Everyone is convincing me that I'm crazy though. It's almost like I had to pick the guy who I know would want to be with me the LEAST, just so I could be disapointed or something.
After all of this happened, I had this conversation with my roomate:
There's this "accident forgiveness" thing offered by this car insurance commercial, and when it came on I said "I need like, 'accident forgiveness' from God," and Renee goes: "No, Ashley. You need 'accident forgiveness' from yourself."
WOW. Ugh, I love her to death.
So... this week is finals... and then I'm going HOME. It's going to be so weird. I wonder if I'll see any RF people over break. I wouldn't be too traumatized if I didn't see anyone from school... but I can think of a few people I might miss. I don't really know many people here that live in my area anyway, but we'll see.
5 day's until my Birthday!!!!!!!!!! SO EXCITING!!
xox Ash
ps- Why is the smiley face for "dirty" so unhappy looking? Maybe that's a sign.
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